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VISION FOR THE FUTURE
At a meeting recently I was asked to state my Vision for the
future. I paused, the future? In a sense I have no vision for
the future. I have only a commitment to an all embracing
Present. For many years I preoccupied myself and wasted time and
energy thinking that a building was necessary for the Foundation
if it was to continue into the future. I held a monastic model.
The Foundation needed a home of its own with a small resident
contemplative community, or so I thought. I attempted to
identify a suitable building or suitable land. I scoured
Woodbrook, St. James, Maraval, Cascade, St. Ann’s, Newtown, St.
Clair, Belmont – all the surrounding areas of Port of Spain and
even further away. I attempted to raise money for the project.
It was all a dismal failure. God had other plans.
The early call to set out on the spiritual journey required that
I “let go” of youthful dreams and yearnings; it required the
exercise of will rather than the satisfaction of desire. The mid
years took this to another level. They demanded that I face
again the issues of the past; that I re-engage them and begin
the movement towards integration and harmonization.
The early years of the Foundation were again years of stripping;
“letting go” this time of people close and dear to me. These
latter years have seen another kind of stripping the “letting
go” of a treasured dream. The time is ripe for God’s Vision.
Slowly I am learning the difference between willfulness and
willing surrender. Willingness requires that we rest in another
level of the self, a level where we are not controlled by the
instinctual drives and the desires to which they give rise.
There can be no willingness without both the spirit and the
practice of detachment
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